a new job.

I am now a used book buyer for Powell's. This is exciting but overshadowed by the fact that, despite the pay increase, I still need to find a second job. At the moment it's looking like I need a job that pays at least $11.50 /hr and gives 37.5 hours a week. On top of the 37.5 hour I work per week already. If I can manage to find this I would only need to do it for 4 months. So around July I'd be done. Just in time, I suppose, for people to come visit and for me to make my way to visit Arizona for a bit.

I am afraid of becoming burnt out and overwhelmed. I am prone to depression and this sort of feat would either exacerbate that or manage to keep me so focused that I would lose sight of the things around me. Neither prospect seems terribly appealing. But it seems as though it is either the prospect of four months of nonstop work or nonstop years of stress about what I'm going to do financially. This doesn't even factor in student loans.

I am not so worried about being able to find a job, but it will be difficult to find a job that has just the right hours, that lets me work ten hour days on my weekends from the bookstore and six hour days on the other three.

I did this in Arizona for a little over a month and felt like shooting myself at the end of it. But to be fair I factor that more due to the type of work I was doing for my second job rather than the amount of time invested. Though admittedly it was less time.

Oh well. I have an idea for a story. It's a little light hearted compared to most of the things I write. I just need to will up the drive to put it down.

It may a bit.